It's over, over . over.

I'm done with Aaron and far too emotional to type out the whole story again but he pretty much ended our marriage and any chance we could work things out. He went the night of my birthday after doing a shitty job of making me enchiladas for my birthday dinner and got wasted, didn't contact me the entire weekend and I found out that he may have slept with another girl.

I know I suspected it, but damn it hurts knowing that I was right. I turned his phone off and gave the line to Brittany, she's living with us right now and needs it more then he does. She found a job within the week of living here and is trying to get out on her own already. She is so independent, I am actually jealous of it. I will soon be that way too.

I'm concentrating on my life with Dae now, I haven't seen/talked to Aaron since that weekend and honestly I don't want to. I don't care to see him right now, he says he needs to "fix himself" and whatever, I'm tired of being there for him to support him and him treating me like shit.


This is my new life, and its just me and Dae and I'm going to spoil us rotten. I work hard and deserve good things and not to be taken advantage of. One day my Prince will come.

:/ err

Just got back from a date with Aaron. It was kind of a bummer, we just seemed so distant. We couldn't find anything to do and there was NO conversation :( It was nice to have dinner out and we went bowling which was a lot of fun, but even then it just seemed so weird. I was also kind of resentful that I had to pay for everything...same old shit with Aaron, no job...

I'm a little sad about it but actually more angry that he doesn't care enough to follow through on what he says. I am starting to feel used again and kinda glad that he and I aren't "together" right now.

One thing that really bothered me was that I asked to use his cellphone to text this code to see if we could get coupons and he was SO uncomfortable handing it to me that I know he's hiding something on there. That pretty much ruined my night and I think is what ruined his too because I couldn't help it, I kinda called him out on it. I said "it's ok, I'm not going to read your texts you don't need to hide them from me" and he just laughed but it was a nervous laugh like he was wondering how much I knew.

Oh well, I'm gonna try to just move on and not try so hard. If it is meant to be, he will change, if not then, I need to prepare to move on alone. Right now I am doing well for MYSELF without his help and it seems like he is just gonna keep doing the same old shit. I am going to do something good with my life and if he wants to get in gear he is welcome but I'm done supporting him.

Trying to stay strong,

What's going on?

Things are alright right now. I'm still working at Transcom, and got my first REAL payday May 13th! It felt SOOOO good to have that money in my account. I was able to pay bills and also start paying tickets off. I can't wait until I can get my license back.

I need a car SO SO SO bad. Having mom driving me to and from work and having to borrow Yolanda's car to go on dates SUCKS so much, I did not realize how not having a car is shitty.

Things with Aaron and I have slowed down a bit. Since I work from 10am-6:30pm Monday-Friday its pretty hard to get together with borrowing a car and having someone watch Dae. Yolanda is a bitch sometimes about the car but that's not a huge deal, its her decision anyway. Can't stop that.

Brittany is going to be moving in with us soon with baby Nate. I'm nervous how that is going to work out and how she is going to get a job and have child care. Things will be ok I think, she is a determined little girl so I know she isn't planning to use us, if anything, she just needs a stepping stone.


Life is good right now, I am happy and Dae is happy and healthy so what else could I want?

New job, date nights, total happiness.

So things have been going on since I last wrote, lets see:


Aaron and I have been going on dates. We've gone to see The Toadies in hemisphere park during Fiesta, it was AWESOME!!! We've just been hanging out a lot, talking and this past Friday night we went to see FAST FIVE and had a real date. It felt soooo good. Things just felt like they were going exactly like they need to. I loved that feeling. We haven't talked much about what's going to happen but right now we are both happy and that is what is important.

He still hasn't been able to get his clothes or car, so finding a job isn't easy for him now. I talked to him briefly about me getting an apartment and asked if he'd move in and he just got quiet. I am not sure what that means, but I hope that he isn't just messing with me, I hope that he wants to work things out. I do fear that he is enjoying the freedom too much and he will not want to work things out. I am also enjoying things, BUT on the other hand, since I have Dae all the time, I am feeling more pressure. I'm pretty mixed up right now to be honest.


I have a new job, working at Transcom answering phone calls for AARP. It's super easy and they say that there aren't any disgruntled members calling. It pays well and hopefully I can pay off my tickets and get my license and get a car/move out soon.

I'm excited to see what the future has in store for us, hopefully there will be nothing but good things but only time will tell.