30 Day of Thanks: November 12, 2011

I'm thankful for my mother in law. Sure, she drives me nuts sometimes, but she really does try to help us out. She watched Dae for us today so Aaron and I could spend some much needed time together.

30 Days of Thanks: November 11, 2011

Today is Veteran's Day and I'm thankful to every person who has served in the military and for their wives and kids who sacrifice things we take for granted to support their serviceman/woman.

30 Days of Thanks: November 10, 2011

Today I'm thankful for coffee. It was a rough day and a nice cup of coffee really helped me get through the day.

30 Days of Thanks: November 9, 2011

Today I'm thankful for cooler weather. It's been too hot for too long and even though it likely won't last, the cooler weather is a relief. I love it.

30 Days of Thanks: November 7,2011 & November 8th, 2011

damn. I totally messed up on this 30 days of thanks thing. So I'm gonna do two in one entry and then todays in another. I know, no one is reading this, so no one cares. LOL

November 7, 2011
-Today I'm thankful that my son is well behaved in restaurants. He sits still, doesn't scream and eats his food, often better then he does at home. It really makes me proud when people stop by and compliment us, even when they say "I had no idea a child was here, he is SO good". yay!

November 8, 2011
-Today I'm thankful for date night!! It was so overlooked in the past and now Aaron and I have made it a point to get out of the house, alone, and do something fun. Not stressing over the money spent is most important.

30 Days of Thanks: November 6th, 2011

Today I'm thankful for the guys in my life. My husband Aaron who is my bestfriend and protector. Also my cousin who's always down to help us out when we're in a bind.

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Ugh...this may not make any sense...you've been warned.

Ever get to a point in your life where it seems that everyone around you has what you want? Not only do they have what you want, they are unhappy about it, or consider it a burden. Something that you want so bad you can feel it in your soul, it consumes your every thought, and yet for you, is unattainable. Whether at this time or place in life or whatever the case may be, it goes back to childhood where they have what you want. *stomp feet*

It's hard to be happy for people when you are slightly jealous of them. Jealousy is an asshole you know. It makes common, everyday things feel like they are never enough, or not good enough. It's hard to fake it till you make it but that's my motto 24/7 right now.

Only, I'm tired of faking it and you know what? It's not making it. I want things to go right for once, I want the choices I make to finally show that they are the right ones. I don't doubt my choices, and I have faith things will go the way they're meant to be but some kind of sign that I'm doing the right thing would be nice. I don't feel like I'm 25, I feel much older, much more stressed out and much less happy.

I feel like my wings are clipped, like I'm trying to please everyone and it is just backfiring and I'm ending up falling and who is there to catch me? I know one person who will be there and he's my entire world...it just sucks that in order for me to be happy, I will be making others unhappy.