I'm sooooooo

FRUSTRATED! ANNOYED! AGGRAVATED!

When is it going to be my chance? When are things finally going to go my way? Or at least lean in my favor? I feel like I am never going to get my break in life, that I'm always going to be treading water.

It's so hard to stay positive all the time, when things seem like they will never change, they will never get better no matter how hard you try, something will bring you down. How do you keep thinking positively after that?

Don't I deserve to be happy? Don't I deserve to not have to struggle for everything. Can't things just go my way once? I can't understand how things never get better, I try my hardest at everything I do, I do everything the right way and nothing ever gets any better. It makes me wonder why do I even try?

What's the point of trying if nothing will ever change, if things will never look up, get better or improve, why am I busting my ass? If I manage to finish school, will that really help? Or will I still struggle in all aspects of my life?

30 Days of Thanks: November 14th, 2011

Today I'm thankful that the girl I work with got the hint and stopped talking to me. She's annoying and I dislike her highly.

30 Days of Thanks: November 13, 2011

Today I'm thankful that I don't have to worry or stress over having food for my family. I know that no matter what, we can eat. Millions of families don't have that luxury.

30 Day of Thanks: November 12, 2011

I'm thankful for my mother in law. Sure, she drives me nuts sometimes, but she really does try to help us out. She watched Dae for us today so Aaron and I could spend some much needed time together.

30 Days of Thanks: November 11, 2011

Today is Veteran's Day and I'm thankful to every person who has served in the military and for their wives and kids who sacrifice things we take for granted to support their serviceman/woman.

30 Days of Thanks: November 10, 2011

Today I'm thankful for coffee. It was a rough day and a nice cup of coffee really helped me get through the day.

30 Days of Thanks: November 9, 2011

Today I'm thankful for cooler weather. It's been too hot for too long and even though it likely won't last, the cooler weather is a relief. I love it.