This Time Last Year

This time last year, we were broke, stressed out and planning to move to McAllen. We were unhappy, angry, bitter, fighting a lot and just all around negative. January 2011 was the first month of the hardest months of my life. Months that I once wished had never happened, but now, I am stronger, more confident and in a better place because of them. I don't believe in regret, everything happens for a reason and every bad spot is a learning experience.

This time last year, I was so angry. I'm not even sure why I was so angry or how I let myself get that way but I was this little ball of constant anger. I was letting others get to me, comparing myself with people who don't matter (not anyone I know personally, no one take offense) and just feeling like shit ALL THE TIME.

This time last year, we were so broke, we had to borrow money just to get the boys something for Christmas. How embarrassing.

This time last year, we were in Dallas, TX with my brother and sister in law. Now that was fun times, I love being with my sister in law, she's such a sweet, genuine soul, I'm truly blessed to have her in my life. That was the first time I made a long drive alone with Dae. We did great, was it a glimpse to the year to come? Where I would be doing more and more things myself that I did not know I was capable of?

This year, we're not rich, but we're not broke. Stress is being managed and not really an issue and while we are still planning to move, we're only going 20minutes away, not 4hours. We are happy, in love, healthy and while we argue at times, it is far from the fights we were having. Everything is positive. Positive thinking, recognizing the bad parts but making a point to find the positive in every situation. We are much stronger as individuals and more importantly, as a couple. We are finally one unit.

This year, I'm happy, that intense anger I was feeling is almost nonexistent. I am now able to handle stressful situations and not get angry, I'm done comparing myself to anyone or doing things because others are doing them. I do what I want, what is best for my marriage and for my son and I don't give a damn what others think about it. Told you, I got me some confidence

This year, we both have jobs. Aaron is working at Logan's Roadhouse (the one off jones maltsburger and 410 GO SEE HIM! *whisper* and leave a big tip lol) and I'm a workstudy on campus. They aren't the best jobs, but they are something and they are what is gonna get us into our own apartment.

This year, we're planning our move, planning our future and living and loving life.

2010-2011 had some rough spots but I learned so much about myself and my strength, I wouldn't change it. This year is going to be different, I know this because WE are different. Relationship wise, we can now talk things out, deal with stress much better and I can FEEL the love, I KNOW he loves me and he KNOWS I love him. Much different then this time last year.

I can't wait to be in our little apartment with my little family.