Decided to finally use my blogger app and blog on the go. I wanted to tell the world about this stupid guy who rides the bus...I'm sure he's a nice guy but the way he wears his hat just makes me think otherwise. It's just barely sitting on top of his head, and backwards...kind of like...ugh I wish I could take a picture. Its not even on top of his head, its just sitting on the back of his head like those caps Jewish men/boys wear...except this is a Cincinnati Reds cap lol anyway, he looks foolish and everytime I see him I want to ask if he thinks he looks cool or doesn't know how to buy hats.
Ok, enough picking on that kid lol
Today Aaron comes back from McAllen and will be bringing "my" car to me. I'm pretty excited, its not the best car, but its free. Who can argue with free? Not me.
I'm still all over the place with him...most days I can see all the hurt he's put me through, the carelessness, the fact he won't grow up...but then...every once in a while, I think, well, maybe he can change. Maybe this time will be different, maybe things will work out. Maybe, just maybe, he realizes he can't live without me and he will do anything to make it up to me. I've tried to talk myself out of these feelings, but I just can't. I never, ever wanted my marriage to end, I always said that no matter what he did (aside from putting hands on me/dae) that I would make it work. I just don't know what he is thinking/feeling and I could be setting myself up for a huge letdown.
Only time will tell.
Ok, enough picking on that kid lol
Today Aaron comes back from McAllen and will be bringing "my" car to me. I'm pretty excited, its not the best car, but its free. Who can argue with free? Not me.
I'm still all over the place with him...most days I can see all the hurt he's put me through, the carelessness, the fact he won't grow up...but then...every once in a while, I think, well, maybe he can change. Maybe this time will be different, maybe things will work out. Maybe, just maybe, he realizes he can't live without me and he will do anything to make it up to me. I've tried to talk myself out of these feelings, but I just can't. I never, ever wanted my marriage to end, I always said that no matter what he did (aside from putting hands on me/dae) that I would make it work. I just don't know what he is thinking/feeling and I could be setting myself up for a huge letdown.
Only time will tell.
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