Best Friends

I talked to Crystal last night. She's me and Aaron's best friend, the only one who knows us both as a couple.

I felt like I was putting her in the middle, but she is so sweet and the best person ever, she really helped me see that it does take two of us working together to fix our marriage. I don't understand how we can fix things being 200 miles away. I want to go down to Edinburg, I want to force him to talk to me and to fix this WITH me. Along side me, together.

I am so scared that this isn't going to work out because of something I didn't do. Everyone tells me to cut my losses and to let him go, but I can't do that.


I love him. Aaron is my best friend in the world. There is no other person that I want to spend my life with, that I want to watch TV with, that I want to laugh and cry and celebrate with. He's my whole world and without him I feel like a deep hole.