So I'm chillin at home and this number I don't know calls me, I missed the call so I call it back and turns out it was Aaron. The voice sounded familiar on the other end but it had actually been a long time since I've talked to Aaron on the phone, I wasn't sure what his voice sounded like.
We made small talk, and I let him talk to Dae for a bit. Yeah Dae actually talks on the phone now, he's SO adorable and such a big boy. He says things like "hi" "yeah" "uh huh" "ok" and pauses to listen. SO cool.
So I feel SO bad because while I had him on the line and I tried to call his mom so she could talk to him, but she didn't answer and he couldn't stay on the line long but I was able to call his brother Richard for him and he was able to talk to him and tell him what he wanted etc. He's bringing me the ps3 and games for Dae.
I am so confused right now...I am pretty much the only person he has to rely on, and he's already asked me to pay his tickets, child support and other things and promises to help me...part of me thinks he is being honest and true but there is another part of me that just...can't trust him anymore.
Like my brain says that I don't want to be married to him anymore, and I honestly don't have that feeling of "love/passion" towards him. I remember how I felt back in 2006 and those feelings of we will rule the world are over. If he comes back and can get a job and work then maybe we will be friends, maybe we will be best friends but I'm not sure either one of us is "in love" with the other one anymore.
IDK...this is all just too much.
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