His crazy ass hitch-hiked from McAllen,TX to Laredo,TX. That's like 145miles!
I am going to post the emails he sent me:
March 19th- i did something horrible thursday night and i am to ashamed and guilt ridden to face it. what it did do is make me realize that i am not that man i need to be for the boys. i have decided to be homeless and hitch hike to califonia. i have had a life i didn't deserve and boys who need a better father. i don't have my cell phone with me. to be honest i don't even really know what i am doing but i know need to do something and what i was doing wasn't working. one day i will be what the boys need. please tell my mom that im ok and alive. i will message you if i need any information at a later time to send my CS payments. i know everyone is mad at me. i hope oneday i can make it up to every one. plz kiss the boys for me. tell them what ever you feel is right. i will try to keep contact via internet atleast once a week.
good bye.
March 22- i have a request that the boys spend time together to replace my visitation. i love them so much and there always on my mind. i see other ppl with there kids and it makes me sad. the reason i am doing this is to make my self a better person for them. they need someone better then what i am now and i am determined to become that. i am going to live a humble life in a state of sin and i will either make it or not. i love the boys so much. i was going to tell you once i have some real money i will make a payment on the phone to cover at least this month and the dissconnection fee. i need to see if i can really stand on my own two feet without the support of the ones who love me and carry me. kiss dea for me.
no i still plan on going to Calli. there is where i plan to make something of my self. by 'humble life' i mean i wont own anything of value except for a good board, and maybe a surfboard too. beyond that just work and sleep. i want to come back accomplished and know i can do things for myself.
*sigh* I have no idea what I'm doing. I don't want him "back" I just want things to be normal.
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